Book Number: 26
Book Name: The dead of the Night
Page Number: 271
Page Subtotal: 9314
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I agree
I was going to comment this, but then I realised I had too much to say in a comment.
I was actually a little annoyed when I read that about the church.
I found it in my research, I have very similar sources.
And I was disgusted, really, that they have decided that they are going to feel all high and mighty and say that they accept gay people, but they're not going to have sex.
So basically what, they can hold hands?
They think they should be commended for acceptin people for the way they are, big whoop.
I know some of you who read this a catholic, and i don't mean to offend you
but I really think the catholic church needs to realise what they are saying.
i honestly think it would have been better for them to keep their old views, rather than half say that it's all ok.
Basically, what they do is keep everything exactly the way they have always believed it until there is definite evidence to the contrary.
Doesn't matter that they are humans who deserve the same rights as everyone else
Doesn't matter that THEY ARE DOING NOTHING WRONG
Doesn't matter
Becasue until they get set in stone information they're not saying a thing.
and when they do, they're all apologies and whatever.
I'm not anti-catholic, I believe in religion and it's benefits
but i really think they need to take a good look at what's going on in society and change some things
because they're going to start loosing people
And that's not right.
they shouldn't loose people because they aren't willing to take a look at society and see that 2000 years have passed.
sorry. rant over.
I was actually a little annoyed when I read that about the church.
I found it in my research, I have very similar sources.
And I was disgusted, really, that they have decided that they are going to feel all high and mighty and say that they accept gay people, but they're not going to have sex.
So basically what, they can hold hands?
They think they should be commended for acceptin people for the way they are, big whoop.
I know some of you who read this a catholic, and i don't mean to offend you
but I really think the catholic church needs to realise what they are saying.
i honestly think it would have been better for them to keep their old views, rather than half say that it's all ok.
Basically, what they do is keep everything exactly the way they have always believed it until there is definite evidence to the contrary.
Doesn't matter that they are humans who deserve the same rights as everyone else
Doesn't matter that THEY ARE DOING NOTHING WRONG
Doesn't matter
Becasue until they get set in stone information they're not saying a thing.
and when they do, they're all apologies and whatever.
I'm not anti-catholic, I believe in religion and it's benefits
but i really think they need to take a good look at what's going on in society and change some things
because they're going to start loosing people
And that's not right.
they shouldn't loose people because they aren't willing to take a look at society and see that 2000 years have passed.
sorry. rant over.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Comparisons
How many times a day do you get told you're a horrible person?
I bet I'll win.
All that ever seems to happen in my life is disappointment. All I ever seem to be is a disappointment.
A disappointment to myself,
to my family,
to my friends.
And I am constantly surrounded by reminders of how amazing I am at failing.
And I try not to see it
I try to believe what you say to me
But nothing can take away the feeling that everything I have is falling away
It's like my entity, what makes me me is leaking out of me
like, before long, there will be none of ME left
but apparently this isn't a bad thing
Because I'm a horrible person
because I should be replaced
because I'm not good enough
Because I don't meet standards.
Because no one else does what I do
No one else is as bad as I am
Because apparently, I'm as bad as it gets.
And I have tried to ignore it
but when you get told enough, you start to believe it
and then you realise how true it is
but you can't do anything to fix it
so you give in
I bet I'll win.
All that ever seems to happen in my life is disappointment. All I ever seem to be is a disappointment.
A disappointment to myself,
to my family,
to my friends.
And I am constantly surrounded by reminders of how amazing I am at failing.
And I try not to see it
I try to believe what you say to me
But nothing can take away the feeling that everything I have is falling away
It's like my entity, what makes me me is leaking out of me
like, before long, there will be none of ME left
but apparently this isn't a bad thing
Because I'm a horrible person
because I should be replaced
because I'm not good enough
Because I don't meet standards.
Because no one else does what I do
No one else is as bad as I am
Because apparently, I'm as bad as it gets.
And I have tried to ignore it
but when you get told enough, you start to believe it
and then you realise how true it is
but you can't do anything to fix it
so you give in
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Book 25 - The short second life of Bree Tanner
Book number: 25
Book Title: The Short Second life of Bree Tanner
Page Number: 178
Page Subtotal: 9043
AMAZING BOOK!
Book Title: The Short Second life of Bree Tanner
Page Number: 178
Page Subtotal: 9043
AMAZING BOOK!
Book 24 - Tomorrow when the war began
Book Number: 24
Book Name: Tomorrow, when the war began
Page Number: 286
Page Sub-total: 8865
Book Name: Tomorrow, when the war began
Page Number: 286
Page Sub-total: 8865
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
i feel terrible
but mostly i feel selfish
selfish because I know they're all worse off than me
selfish becuase I'm making them do my work anyway
selfish because I am
I don't want to be selfish
I don't want to make you do it all
But right now I need to care about me
Right now I need to be depressed and wollow in self pity
So I'm going to do that
At the cost of my friends
At the cost of their health and wellbeing I am going to curl up in a ball and cry and d nothing and not care
Because I'm done caring.
All I do is care
And I'm sick of it
I will reget posting this tomorrow, I know that
And i'm probably not sick of caring, I'm jsut sick
but that's what's happening in the deepest parts of me right now
I'm being selfish and not caring
Becuase I'm done caring for today.
There are too many of you to fix
So you need survive without my care for one night
you need to breathe
not pass out
not be awaiting a life changing decision
not be depressed and angry
not ignore me
not smile and make me feel better
not be angry and ranty
because tonight
I am beyond caring
I am physically, mentally and emotional exhausted
I don't have the energy for it tonight.
Please all survive until tomorrow
I just wanna jump
dont wanna think about tomorrow
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about my sorrows
Let go
Forget your problems I just let them go
Can't take this any more
Can't take this anymore
Forget tomorrow
I just wanna jump
but mostly i feel selfish
selfish because I know they're all worse off than me
selfish becuase I'm making them do my work anyway
selfish because I am
I don't want to be selfish
I don't want to make you do it all
But right now I need to care about me
Right now I need to be depressed and wollow in self pity
So I'm going to do that
At the cost of my friends
At the cost of their health and wellbeing I am going to curl up in a ball and cry and d nothing and not care
Because I'm done caring.
All I do is care
And I'm sick of it
I will reget posting this tomorrow, I know that
And i'm probably not sick of caring, I'm jsut sick
but that's what's happening in the deepest parts of me right now
I'm being selfish and not caring
Becuase I'm done caring for today.
There are too many of you to fix
So you need survive without my care for one night
you need to breathe
not pass out
not be awaiting a life changing decision
not be depressed and angry
not ignore me
not smile and make me feel better
not be angry and ranty
because tonight
I am beyond caring
I am physically, mentally and emotional exhausted
I don't have the energy for it tonight.
Please all survive until tomorrow
I just wanna jump
dont wanna think about tomorrow
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about my sorrows
Let go
Forget your problems I just let them go
Can't take this any more
Can't take this anymore
Forget tomorrow
I just wanna jump
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