Grey's Anatomy got it right

Since I heard this the first time, I loved it.
Said in the most simple, yet perfect words, this quote sums up the feelings of a graduate. Apparently, as of an hour ago, that's me :D

Today is the day my life begins. Today, I become a citizen of the world. Today, I become a grown up. Today, I become accountable to someone other than myself and my parents, accountable for more than my grades. Today, I become accountable to the world, to the future, to all the possibilities that life has to offer. Starting today, my job is to show up, wide eyed and willing and ready. For what? I don’t know. For anything. For everything. To take on life. To take on love. To take on the responsibility and possibility. Today, my friends, our lives begin. And I for one, can’t wait.

I could not have put it better myself

Thanks for having the guts to say what no one else will

Is it bad?

Is it bad that I want to give up
Is it bad that I don't want to do this
Is it bad that 9 days is too long
Is it bad that I want to see you
Is it bad that all I want to do is see you
Is it bad that I like FTV classrooms
Is it bad that I don't care to break the rules
Is it bad that I don't care to sneak around
Is it bad that after 2 weeks I won't see you for a while
Is it bad?

There are so many things that I shouldn't be doing
There are so many other things I should be doing
Is it bad that I don't care?
Because right now, none if it matters
All I want to do is enjoy my life
And the next 9 days are holding me back.

Milestone

I think I may have just finished the last written assignment of my high schooling years.
I feel achieved
And tired
And Hungry.
Ok, I feel like crap. But it's done. I officially wrote an EEI in 2 days.
Kudos to me :P

Mistake

I was wrong to doubt you
I cannot believe I did
I thought you were using me, that you only wanted one thing
But I was wrong
You're not like that at all
You record me songs
And call me beautiful
You talk to me for hours, and keep talking until I fall asleep
You sat there and listened to me breathe for half an hour
You wouldn't be doing that if you only wanted sex
You wouldn't be sticking around if that's all you wanted

You said you might be willing to trial it
To give it a go
You know you've been hurt, but you'd do it for me
Why didn't I find you 6 months ago :)

I was so angry
No, worse than that I was hurt
In the deepest part of me I was hurting
I put so much into that house
SO MUCH
I planted those plants
I weeded that garden
I pruned those hedges to make them look nice
I layed the slab for the shed
I put up the shed
I put up the sun visor
I layed the grass
I planted the vege garden
I cleaned that bathroom so many times
I vacuumed that floor
We picked those tiles
We spend hours in the paint shop finding the right colour
I climed up ladders to check things
I put so much into that house
And it, and my life was taken away from me before I knew it
And it hurt
I was hurting
But then you kissed my forehead
and imprinted a butterfly on my chest
You said the most perfect things
and I know you were sober
I know you meant it
Because you always do
You take away my pain.
You always have, and you always will
You took away my pain, and now it doesn't hurt
I wish there was another way I could say 'I love you' so that you knew how much I truly mean it, but there's not. So we'll just have to settle with it
I love you

Equality

Life has put on the fast-forward this last few weeks.
It's like I'm experiencing the entirety of adolescence that I missed out on these last 5 years, and cramming it into 6 weeks.
There are so many things I've never done before that I have in the last 4 weeks, and I'm glad for it.
I have officially
Got a boyfriend
Been to a party
Procrastinated to the extreme
Not done assignments
Had a co-ed sleepover :P

So many things that I never did over the course of my five years at high school to the point where I felt left behind everyone else. I was always the last one to do anything, understand anything
But now, I've caught up
It may have taken me a while, but by the time I walk out those gates
I will be your equals.
I will no longer be the younger one who hasn't experienced the world
And I am so happy for that, that I cannot even express it