Resurrection

Tonight I got the chance to be the old me again.
To care about someone else and forget about me.
Tonight I felt worthy again.
I think I'm coming back piece by piece...

The nerve

DON'T YOU FUCKING COMPLAIN ABOUT BEING FOREVER ALONE
FOREVER ALONE? REALLY?
AND WHOSE CHOICE WAS THAT?
Did everyone just walk away from you, did they?
Are you trying to tell me that there isn't anyone who's been trying for MONTHS to get back in your life and who you keen refusing
Someone who would gladly keep you company
ARE YOU TELLING ME THERE'S NO ONE? NO ONE AT ALL

I guess I mean less to you than I thought
You're a hypocrite, and I'm starting to get really sick of it
I knew you'd need me. Now it's your turn to realise it.

Five stages

Denial has passed
Anger is here
Bargaining prevails
Depression to come
And acceptance.

I don't know if I want to accept this...

Old flames die hard

You keep popping up in my life.
I hadn't seen you for years, then I saw your picture.
It had been another few years and I pass you on the street
A few weeks later and I find a video of yours
Every so often you reappear, and disappear just as quickly.
I mean, I'm not complaining. I'm just saying it's weird.

But it's ok. I always knew I was way out of your league
And we were both happy with that

To Claire; from Sonny

I think I'm out of the phase where I just lie on my floor hoping you'll just turn up on my doorstep
You know what, I'm doing ok. Getting there.
You spend enough time with a person and your bodies memorise each other.
Some where there might be a world in which on that day in February...I didn't say all those things I didn't mean and you didn't walk away without another word
We'd still have bubble tea with those god-awful slimy globules of jelly down the bottom with I hate
I wish you'd...talk to me
Cuz you know what. I'm not doing well. Life is actually pretty shit.
I hope they're treating you well...because I miss you more than ever