Oh multiple moons

I have missed seeing you on my dashboard.
Welcome back :)

I'm losing my grip. I'm losing my grip on what's real. On what are my feelings, on what's made up. I'm losing grip on what's coming from my heart and what's from my head.
I can't do this for much longer. I can't keep throwing myself around, tumbling from one side of the room to another, hoping I don't get too harmed in the process. I feel like my life is inception, I'm in the second dream, in the middle of the kick from the first.
My world tumbles from side to side; no sense of gravity, no direction, no prediction
Each day comes as it does, and there's nothing any of us can do to control it
All I can do is try to ride the kicks up the chain and hope I wake up at the end of it.
There seems to be a never ending supply of problems, of issues. It's all I can do to keep my head above water.

A trip down memory lane

So I've recently decided to re-read Harry Potter for about the millionth time.
And I've realised how incredibly saucy it is XD
I haven't actually read it as a 'mature person', I was considerably young and innocent
But yes, Just thought I'd let you all know
Dumbledore blushes at Madame Pomfrey
SCANDAL! :P

And then

And then it begins
And then my heart swells
And then it takes up my entire chest
And then the pain starts
And then it spreads down my arms
And then it goes into the gut of my stomach
And then I can't breathe
And then my body contracts
And then I can't do anything
And then all I can do is sit
And then the pain intensifies
And then I wait
And then I talk to you
And then it goes away

I miss you

You keep me sane
Like, actually
I don't know what it is, but your presence in my day keeps me sane and reasonably together
Yesterday we didn't talk for the first time in a while
And that didn't end well
In conclusion
Talk to me :D
Please and thankyou :)

You know, I was going to post a depressing and probably attention seeking blog here
but i'm not
I'm over it, I just need to sort myself out