i feel terrible
but mostly i feel selfish
selfish because I know they're all worse off than me
selfish becuase I'm making them do my work anyway
selfish because I am
I don't want to be selfish
I don't want to make you do it all
But right now I need to care about me
Right now I need to be depressed and wollow in self pity
So I'm going to do that
At the cost of my friends
At the cost of their health and wellbeing I am going to curl up in a ball and cry and d nothing and not care
Because I'm done caring.
All I do is care
And I'm sick of it
I will reget posting this tomorrow, I know that
And i'm probably not sick of caring, I'm jsut sick
but that's what's happening in the deepest parts of me right now
I'm being selfish and not caring
Becuase I'm done caring for today.
There are too many of you to fix
So you need survive without my care for one night
you need to breathe
not pass out
not be awaiting a life changing decision
not be depressed and angry
not ignore me
not smile and make me feel better
not be angry and ranty
because tonight
I am beyond caring

I am physically, mentally and emotional exhausted
I don't have the energy for it tonight.
Please all survive until tomorrow


I just wanna jump
dont wanna think about tomorrow
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump
Don't wanna think about my sorrows
Let go
Forget your problems I just let them go
Can't take this any more
Can't take this anymore
Forget tomorrow
I just wanna jump