Like, it was the definition of wierd.
But the wierdest thing is I don't know where it came from
Other wierd dreams I have are instigated by something you said, or something that happened, or in relation to a book I read or something,
but this one was just... Wierd!
Actually, I had a few wierd dreams last night. I was climbing on roofs and tipping houses over and being chased by crazy people....
I think there may have been something in my dinner last night...
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Oh
I actually can't express in words how much you mean to me.
How much you all mean to me,
but I think you were the only one who understood that, or perhaps the only one who read it.
You made me cry at the fact that I made you cry.
But yes, I am ok
I'm trying to sort myself out, trying to figure out what to do
how to respond.
I wish you could read it
I wish I could tell you everything
But I don't think I can bring myself to relive that
I have spent far too long trying to build a barrier over those memories
trying not to dream about them
or relate them to my current experiences
I'm afraid if I let them out, I won't be able to put them back
I'm afraid that they'll take over my life
That they'll consume all that I have rebuilt
So I hope you understand
I wish I could tell you
I really do
But I don't know if I can
Maybe one day
You will hear everything
until then
I'm afraid I can't.
I love you
How much you all mean to me,
but I think you were the only one who understood that, or perhaps the only one who read it.
You made me cry at the fact that I made you cry.
But yes, I am ok
I'm trying to sort myself out, trying to figure out what to do
how to respond.
I wish you could read it
I wish I could tell you everything
But I don't think I can bring myself to relive that
I have spent far too long trying to build a barrier over those memories
trying not to dream about them
or relate them to my current experiences
I'm afraid if I let them out, I won't be able to put them back
I'm afraid that they'll take over my life
That they'll consume all that I have rebuilt
So I hope you understand
I wish I could tell you
I really do
But I don't know if I can
Maybe one day
You will hear everything
until then
I'm afraid I can't.
I love you
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
confused
what does it mean if blogger is telling you you have a comment but the post says there is no comment??
Monday, May 17, 2010
You don't get to apologise
You hurt me
It may have been a while ago,
and maybe I don't think about it or you every day anymore
but the fact of the matter is you hurt me
you broke me beyond repair.
I was normal
I was an uncomplicated, normal person
and you took that away from me
you ripped my world from under my feet
you destroyed everything I had
Everything I believed in
You made me dark and twisty
and nothing will take that away.
I don't think you will ever fully grasp the concept of what you did to me
of how your actions impacted on me and my life
You took away my youth
you took away my childhood
You took away every stable thing I had in my life.
You say that you weren't mentally stable enough to handle my reaction
but did you ever think that maybe we weren't mentally stable enough either?
You made me fear the one thing I though was meant to protect me
You destroyed the one indestructible thing in my life
You were the thing I never deserved to have to deal with
Just when my life was back on track
finally when things are good again
you decide it's time to apologise
So I don't care if you were depressed
I don't care if you realise now that what you did was wrong
You don't get to apologise
You don't get to get it off your conscience
You don't get to feel better
It may have been a while ago,
and maybe I don't think about it or you every day anymore
but the fact of the matter is you hurt me
you broke me beyond repair.
I was normal
I was an uncomplicated, normal person
and you took that away from me
you ripped my world from under my feet
you destroyed everything I had
Everything I believed in
You made me dark and twisty
and nothing will take that away.
I don't think you will ever fully grasp the concept of what you did to me
of how your actions impacted on me and my life
You took away my youth
you took away my childhood
You took away every stable thing I had in my life.
You say that you weren't mentally stable enough to handle my reaction
but did you ever think that maybe we weren't mentally stable enough either?
You made me fear the one thing I though was meant to protect me
You destroyed the one indestructible thing in my life
You were the thing I never deserved to have to deal with
Just when my life was back on track
finally when things are good again
you decide it's time to apologise
So I don't care if you were depressed
I don't care if you realise now that what you did was wrong
You don't get to apologise
You don't get to get it off your conscience
You don't get to feel better
Saturday, May 8, 2010
History
Most of the time I don't understand you
it is a rare occasion when I completely understand all that you say
And I don't know you very well.
I don't think we were ever close enough for me to really know you
Yet I think I know that you have always been right for her
Always been the one person she could turn to.
I think even amidst the yelling and abuse that I threw at you, both to your face and not
I knew the reason you hurt her so much, or the reason she felt hurt by the things you did
was because she always knew you were right for her
you may have different personalities
and value different things
but I have a good feeling about this
I think it will all work out
because I think you were always right for her...
She was always a happier, more fun loving person with you
and although you both hurt each other at times
I think you were both better people for knowing each other
and I'm not just saying this
I honestly think you are good for her.
it is a rare occasion when I completely understand all that you say
And I don't know you very well.
I don't think we were ever close enough for me to really know you
Yet I think I know that you have always been right for her
Always been the one person she could turn to.
I think even amidst the yelling and abuse that I threw at you, both to your face and not
I knew the reason you hurt her so much, or the reason she felt hurt by the things you did
was because she always knew you were right for her
you may have different personalities
and value different things
but I have a good feeling about this
I think it will all work out
because I think you were always right for her...
She was always a happier, more fun loving person with you
and although you both hurt each other at times
I think you were both better people for knowing each other
and I'm not just saying this
I honestly think you are good for her.
Friday, May 7, 2010
I don't have enough issues...
I'm a teenage girl, but I don't have any issues
I think I need a life...
I think I need a life...
Thursday, May 6, 2010
oh em gee
ALANNA! I WAS JUST DOING MY CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK AND THERE IS A FORMULA I THINK YOU WILL LIKE!!!
it is
4KO2 + 2H2O ---> 4KOH + 3O2
I nearly jumped out of my skin with excitement!
Just thought I'd tell you
How's life? It's totes your birthday in... *checks calendar for today's date* *realises it's the 6th* *calculates in head* 19 days! Maybe I should give you a lovely text in 12 days like I did last year! haha :)
it is
4KO2 + 2H2O ---> 4KOH + 3O2
I nearly jumped out of my skin with excitement!
Just thought I'd tell you
How's life? It's totes your birthday in... *checks calendar for today's date* *realises it's the 6th* *calculates in head* 19 days! Maybe I should give you a lovely text in 12 days like I did last year! haha :)
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