You don't get to apologise

You hurt me
It may have been a while ago,
and maybe I don't think about it or you every day anymore
but the fact of the matter is you hurt me
you broke me beyond repair.
I was normal
I was an uncomplicated, normal person
and you took that away from me
you ripped my world from under my feet
you destroyed everything I had
Everything I believed in
You made me dark and twisty
and nothing will take that away.
I don't think you will ever fully grasp the concept of what you did to me
of how your actions impacted on me and my life
You took away my youth
you took away my childhood
You took away every stable thing I had in my life.
You say that you weren't mentally stable enough to handle my reaction
but did you ever think that maybe we weren't mentally stable enough either?
You made me fear the one thing I though was meant to protect me
You destroyed the one indestructible thing in my life
You were the thing I never deserved to have to deal with
Just when my life was back on track
finally when things are good again
you decide it's time to apologise
So I don't care if you were depressed
I don't care if you realise now that what you did was wrong
You don't get to apologise
You don't get to get it off your conscience
You don't get to feel better