I never said I wanted kids, right?

Ok, so I'm sitting here at the computer desk, minding my own business, trying to type up the tediuos calculations of my physics experiment, when all of a sudden all I can hear is SCREAMING!
It would appear that one of the neighbours is either
a) holding a screaming contest
b) being raped
c) having a party for 10 year olds

Now, by calculating the pitch of the screaming and the duration of each individual scream, I would have to say that option c) is the most accurate...WAIT! I think they just got some cake, cuz it's all quiet now.

All is good in *insert name here*-land

Just had to say

My God did I laugh

Oh deer, with a picture of a deer! lol
That is the awesomest pun I have ever seen!

I have finished My English!

I know that's boring and completely irrelevant,
But so am I, so deal with it XD

It's like, super long though... 1200 or so words...
Oh well.
So...
Sup?

I thought of you today,

And I don't very often, I'm sorry.
But today I did.
Because I was sitting in Italian, and we are doing Home and Lifestyles.
And we got our usual vocab sheets.
And on the vocab sheet were two things that made me think of you.
The first was camera da letto, as in 'tu mamma e bene in camera'
And the second, which made me smile like a retard to myself
was il frigorifero. As in la mia mucca, si chiama frigorifero.
I miss you in Italian, and they are all getting excited and prepared for the Italy trip this September, the one we were supposed to go on together.
A lot changed when you left,
And I do miss you

What to do..

Too many choices
Too many decisions
Too many options.

wake up
12B or 12C
elmo or plain
spray or roll on
Cereal or toast
juice or milk
Electric or manual toothbrush
Pony tail or bun
Maroon skirt or maroon skirt
English or Physics
Slinkys or golf balls
Titanic or Juno
Proofs or chain rule
Pythagoras or F=ma
chocolate or fruit
Uni or gap year
UQ or QUT
under-grad or post-grad
bio-med or science
3 or 4 years
surgeon or paediatrition
juice or water
read or homework
TV or movie
sleep

In one day, I have listed perhaps half of the choices and decisions that must be made by a single person. Why are there options for breakfast foods? Why does deoderant come in different forms? Why can't Mr Larsen just tell me what EEI to do? Why can't I do Juno? Why can numerous rules be used for one question? Why is there more than one University?
WHYWHYWHY

I sometimes wish, actually hope and pray that there are times when a dictatorship is in place. Because that takes away the decision making. Hair is in a bun. EEI is golf balls. Movie is Titanic. Career is Surgeon.
It may take the freedom out of life,
but at least that's easier than making a decision.

Uncertain

Of what to do.
We don't do this.
I'm not good at comforting you, at taking away you pain
You so rarely show it to me that when you do, I'm not quite sure what to do with it.
When I read what you wrote, I reverted back to the distant past when I rarely understood what you wrote.
I didn't know what it related to, but I could see that it was hurting you.
That that is what has been underlying everything this past week.
I don't know how to help you with your uncertainties
How to raise your self esteem
How to tell you that you actually are a good person, no matter what you or others may think
I don't know what to do.
Because you too, I am going to save
but saving you is going to prove more difficult than I first thought.
Because I don't know what to do.
But I will find out.
And I will save you
I promise.

Save you

There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

...

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there's so many things I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

...

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cuz I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh You know I'll be there for you
...
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
...

I sat there with you sobbing in my arms and I didn't know what to do.
How to comfort you, how to make it better.
I hate that she is so mean to you when she is supposed to love you
I hate that she was supposed to be one of your closest friends and she turns on you like that
I hate that I sat there and had to watch you in that much pain,
watching helplessly
Because neither of us could do anything to make it stop.
I wish I could find the answer to take it all away.
I wish I could save you.