I'm ready

I've been waiting 4 years for this.
Four years ago, as a small little 12 year old I sat in a massive hall full of people
and heard stories about the big girls, the ones who went on this camp
at first I was confused, there were so many things going on I didn't know one camp from the other
but once I heard them talk, once I saw the photos, the videos
I was intrigued, I was captivated by the thought of this camp.
I decided then and there that I was going to go.
I promised myself that if there was one thing that I did in those 5 years, it would be this camp.
When the nominations came around I was quick to put my form in.
I was so keen to go, yet so afraid I would be told that I wasn't good enough
When I got that letter, there were no words to describe my joy
No words.
But then you didn't, and I felt bad for being happy
I've had small sneaky bursts of excitement, but nothing major
I've been preparing for this for 4 years
and I'm ready
I'm ready for whatever this child has to throw at me
I'm ready for tantrums, abuse, anger, no sleep
I knew what I was signing up for, and I'm ready.
I know you can't go
and I know you hate that, I hate it too
But I'm sorry, I have to be happy
Because this is going to be the best experience of my life
I've been preparing and waiting for this for 4 years!
For those who are going, we're going to be in for a long weekend :)
But we were picked for a reason
No matter what happens, don't be scared, don't be worried
We'll be fine, we'll be good enough
We'll have the experience of our lives.