Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
What i should, but can't say...
there are so many things i should be doing right now, but i need to say this to you.
i'm sorry
i'm sorry im always there
i'm sorry i annoy you
i'm sorry i read what i shouldn't
i'm sorry i know too much about you
i'm sorry i care so much
i'm sorry i act immature
i have always had some attraction, but in the magnetisation way, to you, i am not able to leave you till i know you are ok, till you're happy, and until i know you know i am there.
everything i do for you, i do in your best interests, i feel like i am a mother and you are my first child, i am obliged to protect you in every way, from everything.
but now that i think about it, i am not sorry for it.
i am not sorry for always being there, because if you need me i am there
i am not sorry i know too much about you, i know just what you show me, no deeper, i know too little about you, and that i am sorry for
i am not sorry i care so much about you, if i didn't, i don't think i could cope
but i am sorry that when you don't want me, when you feel you don't need me; i can't stay away.
i wish i could, but if you are the north pole, i am the compas hand that always points your way, if you are the minutes hand on a clock, i am the hour hand, trying to keep up, if you are the sun, then i am the earth, orbiting around you.
no matter what you ever do or say, i will never stop loving you, and you will forever be my best friend
for the record, the reason i wrote this in a blog, and didn't tell you, is that whenever i say things alloud they never come out right, no matter how much i edit them. if i write it here, though it is somewhat unedited, my though-train can be better understood...it doesn't mean any less just because you see it on a computer screen...
love you
i'm sorry
i'm sorry im always there
i'm sorry i annoy you
i'm sorry i read what i shouldn't
i'm sorry i know too much about you
i'm sorry i care so much
i'm sorry i act immature
i have always had some attraction, but in the magnetisation way, to you, i am not able to leave you till i know you are ok, till you're happy, and until i know you know i am there.
everything i do for you, i do in your best interests, i feel like i am a mother and you are my first child, i am obliged to protect you in every way, from everything.
but now that i think about it, i am not sorry for it.
i am not sorry for always being there, because if you need me i am there
i am not sorry i know too much about you, i know just what you show me, no deeper, i know too little about you, and that i am sorry for
i am not sorry i care so much about you, if i didn't, i don't think i could cope
but i am sorry that when you don't want me, when you feel you don't need me; i can't stay away.
i wish i could, but if you are the north pole, i am the compas hand that always points your way, if you are the minutes hand on a clock, i am the hour hand, trying to keep up, if you are the sun, then i am the earth, orbiting around you.
no matter what you ever do or say, i will never stop loving you, and you will forever be my best friend
for the record, the reason i wrote this in a blog, and didn't tell you, is that whenever i say things alloud they never come out right, no matter how much i edit them. if i write it here, though it is somewhat unedited, my though-train can be better understood...it doesn't mean any less just because you see it on a computer screen...
love you
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
NOT uni-sexed
well, i just ate one of the sweetheart candies that i recieved at a recent birthday party
and found it saying 'Be my girl'
i have two concerns...
a) who sent that to me...i really should know who they are before agreeing to anything
b) if it wasn't sent to me, who was i meant to send/give it to?
they really should make either uni-sexed candy, or indicate when it is for a certain sex...
maybe we should have swapped, antelope, you would have had someone to give it to! XD
guess what!
totally used tug of war to explain electronegativity in chem today! best part of the lesson!
and found it saying 'Be my girl'
i have two concerns...
a) who sent that to me...i really should know who they are before agreeing to anything
b) if it wasn't sent to me, who was i meant to send/give it to?
they really should make either uni-sexed candy, or indicate when it is for a certain sex...
maybe we should have swapped, antelope, you would have had someone to give it to! XD
guess what!
totally used tug of war to explain electronegativity in chem today! best part of the lesson!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Twilight vs Harry potter
i know this is a topic of many people's blogs, but im not here to argue which is better, or whether or not the movie is good.
im going to talk about why they appeal to me...i hope it doesn't show too much of the part of me that i don't want to be shown...
i think what appeals to me most about them is that both harry and bella didn't fit into the normal world at all, but once they were taken into a neew world, they found where they finally fit.
i think that cuz i 've always been the person who doesn't fit into this world, i hope that some day there will be a world that i do fit into.
i don't mean that i am expecting a hot vampire, or a half giant to come and tell me about their new world that i fit into, i mean that there will be some part of the world, some clique that i will actually fit into.
as much as i try, i can never seem to fit in as well as i would like. i don't expect to be everyone's best friend, but there are few people that i can say really know me and i can be comfortable with.
i don't know whether it is because i don't let people in, or whether its just that people don't want to get close to me, but i do know that in the past i have exposed myself, and been ridiculed... so i think that may be why i no longer expose me...
sorry this was a really wacked/ranty/didn't make sense blog...i will try to keep them to a minimum...
i hope that didn't show too much of the part of me that i don't want to be shown...
im going to talk about why they appeal to me...i hope it doesn't show too much of the part of me that i don't want to be shown...
i think what appeals to me most about them is that both harry and bella didn't fit into the normal world at all, but once they were taken into a neew world, they found where they finally fit.
i think that cuz i 've always been the person who doesn't fit into this world, i hope that some day there will be a world that i do fit into.
i don't mean that i am expecting a hot vampire, or a half giant to come and tell me about their new world that i fit into, i mean that there will be some part of the world, some clique that i will actually fit into.
as much as i try, i can never seem to fit in as well as i would like. i don't expect to be everyone's best friend, but there are few people that i can say really know me and i can be comfortable with.
i don't know whether it is because i don't let people in, or whether its just that people don't want to get close to me, but i do know that in the past i have exposed myself, and been ridiculed... so i think that may be why i no longer expose me...
sorry this was a really wacked/ranty/didn't make sense blog...i will try to keep them to a minimum...
i hope that didn't show too much of the part of me that i don't want to be shown...
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Maths one liner's
Mr Wagner was an absolute crack-up today....unintentionally i believe...
Tianna: thats 22.2 re-occuring, 44.4 re-occuring -
Mr Wagner: and of course this is zero re-occuring
Tianna to erin: yes Mr Wagner, but it is a general assumption in decimals that zero is re-occuring...but you can't have a whole number re-occuring
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: if you do this *points to board* you're dumb...*looks at shocked faces of his class* ... but not in a bad way
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: yeh girls, you can do the boring maths at home, questions 5,6,7 and 8 *proceeds to write 5,7,8 on the board, cocks head to side*...now that's not right is it?
Tianna: no Mr Wagner, no its not
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: now girls i know what you're looking at is dumb - *gestures to text book*
tianna to erin: i know what we are looking at is dumb *gestures to mr wagner*
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: now this graph is skewed
Tianna: *cocks head to side* skewed?
Erin: i know what else is skewed
Tianna and Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
and the discussion at morning tea with bec, about the fat person toilet seats!
NEVER LAUGHED SO MUCH IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! LITERALLY! i couldn't see for laughter tears! or the skinny-person toilet telling a fat person to get off cuz they are too fat!
Tianna: thats 22.2 re-occuring, 44.4 re-occuring -
Mr Wagner: and of course this is zero re-occuring
Tianna to erin: yes Mr Wagner, but it is a general assumption in decimals that zero is re-occuring...but you can't have a whole number re-occuring
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: if you do this *points to board* you're dumb...*looks at shocked faces of his class* ... but not in a bad way
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: yeh girls, you can do the boring maths at home, questions 5,6,7 and 8 *proceeds to write 5,7,8 on the board, cocks head to side*...now that's not right is it?
Tianna: no Mr Wagner, no its not
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: now girls i know what you're looking at is dumb - *gestures to text book*
tianna to erin: i know what we are looking at is dumb *gestures to mr wagner*
Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
Mr Wagner: now this graph is skewed
Tianna: *cocks head to side* skewed?
Erin: i know what else is skewed
Tianna and Erin: *reeling over with laughter*
and the discussion at morning tea with bec, about the fat person toilet seats!
NEVER LAUGHED SO MUCH IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! LITERALLY! i couldn't see for laughter tears! or the skinny-person toilet telling a fat person to get off cuz they are too fat!
Monday, July 13, 2009
what she said...
i was just reading alanna's blog (Hi alanna!)
and i was thinking most of the time, holy cow thats me (in as many words)
i have recently mentioned to amethyst that i feel as if, no matter the 'grand goals' i have in life, i am currently doing nothing to achieve them. i feel as if i am just one more object on this earth, trying her best to adapt to the world we live in, but on the whole, meaningless. nothing i will ever do will ever have an impact on the world. sure people say that its not about changing the world for everyone, its about changing someone's world, and how you have to build a wall one brick at a time, but at this stage in our lives, that is all meaningless. we don't care that one day we could succeed. we don't care that all this hard work will pay off. quite frankly, at the moment i can't see any of what i am doing going anywhere in the near future
i must go now..will continue later
and i was thinking most of the time, holy cow thats me (in as many words)
i have recently mentioned to amethyst that i feel as if, no matter the 'grand goals' i have in life, i am currently doing nothing to achieve them. i feel as if i am just one more object on this earth, trying her best to adapt to the world we live in, but on the whole, meaningless. nothing i will ever do will ever have an impact on the world. sure people say that its not about changing the world for everyone, its about changing someone's world, and how you have to build a wall one brick at a time, but at this stage in our lives, that is all meaningless. we don't care that one day we could succeed. we don't care that all this hard work will pay off. quite frankly, at the moment i can't see any of what i am doing going anywhere in the near future
i must go now..will continue later
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