What i should, but can't say...

there are so many things i should be doing right now, but i need to say this to you.



i'm sorry

i'm sorry im always there
i'm sorry i annoy you
i'm sorry i read what i shouldn't
i'm sorry i know too much about you
i'm sorry i care so much
i'm sorry i act immature

i have always had some attraction, but in the magnetisation way, to you, i am not able to leave you till i know you are ok, till you're happy, and until i know you know i am there.
everything i do for you, i do in your best interests, i feel like i am a mother and you are my first child, i am obliged to protect you in every way, from everything.
but now that i think about it, i am not sorry for it.
i am not sorry for always being there, because if you need me i am there
i am not sorry i know too much about you, i know just what you show me, no deeper, i know too little about you, and that i am sorry for
i am not sorry i care so much about you, if i didn't, i don't think i could cope

but i am sorry that when you don't want me, when you feel you don't need me; i can't stay away.
i wish i could, but if you are the north pole, i am the compas hand that always points your way, if you are the minutes hand on a clock, i am the hour hand, trying to keep up, if you are the sun, then i am the earth, orbiting around you.

no matter what you ever do or say, i will never stop loving you, and you will forever be my best friend

for the record, the reason i wrote this in a blog, and didn't tell you, is that whenever i say things alloud they never come out right, no matter how much i edit them. if i write it here, though it is somewhat unedited, my though-train can be better understood...it doesn't mean any less just because you see it on a computer screen...

love you