Old flames die hard

You keep popping up in my life.
I hadn't seen you for years, then I saw your picture.
It had been another few years and I pass you on the street
A few weeks later and I find a video of yours
Every so often you reappear, and disappear just as quickly.
I mean, I'm not complaining. I'm just saying it's weird.

But it's ok. I always knew I was way out of your league
And we were both happy with that

To Claire; from Sonny

I think I'm out of the phase where I just lie on my floor hoping you'll just turn up on my doorstep
You know what, I'm doing ok. Getting there.
You spend enough time with a person and your bodies memorise each other.
Some where there might be a world in which on that day in February...I didn't say all those things I didn't mean and you didn't walk away without another word
We'd still have bubble tea with those god-awful slimy globules of jelly down the bottom with I hate
I wish you'd...talk to me
Cuz you know what. I'm not doing well. Life is actually pretty shit.
I hope they're treating you well...because I miss you more than ever

And she said

How long does it last?
The morphine helps during the day, but she can't have it at night. Her days are numb but her nights are filled with the extent of her pain. She wonders how long this can continue for. How long someone can survive like this.
How is it possible that someone can be so tired, they're almost drunk
How is it possible that someone can not care so much that they don't feel at all
How is it possible that someone can smile so convincingly, and lose it all later
How it is possible.
Well let me ask you this.
How is it possible that you don't see.
How is it possible that you don't care.
How is it possible
How did it happen.
Merideth says, how did we get from there to here? When did we become adults? And how do we make it stop?

And the paramedic said

She's climbing up the hill and she's about to fall off






too bad I already did

Fuck you

I need you

'I just want to be wanted'

Last time someone said that to me it fucked up my entire life.
This time I say 'Dude you're wanted. she wants you'
Why didn't I just say that last time?
Oh that's right, I'm a fucking idiot, that's why

For you I will

Don't you see?
No. You don't see.
For you. Everything that I do, practically everything I am is for you
He's gone for you. I didn't need him in my life, but I needed you
So stupidly, I thought I could trade. It seemed to work that way in the past
Lose one, gain one, lose that one, gain the other
But of late I seem to have fallen into this horrible mind set
This arrogant, horrid person who thinks she should get things in life
who believes she 'deserves' things.
The fact of the matter is, I've become a horrible person and I don't like who she is.
I've got to change me if I want to change who wants me in their lives
How do I change who I am if I don't even know how I became who I am