I cried today

I haven't in a long time.
It wasn't because I hurt myself,
I was hurt, but it wasn't because I fell down or whatever
It wasn't that kind of crying.

It was the
I-don't-know-when-this-is-going-to-stop kind
the
I-can-feel-my-heartbeat-in-the-roof-of-my-mouth kind
the
I'm-so-glad-no-one-has-to-see-this kind
the kind that I haven't done in a while.

Why?
Because Life is unfair.
That seems to be a fickle thing to cry over, but it wasn't
Bad things happen to good people who don't deserve it
Good things happen to bad people who don't deserve it
People who have everything they could ever ask for complain
People who have everything done for them complain that they are hard done by
People can't just accept that other people may be having a harder time then them at the time
It was because I was angry at people who I don't even know
It was becuase I was angry at a person who I am supposed to love unconditionally
It was because I can't handle seeing the people I love in pain
Because they don't need it
They don't deserve it.
Yet they must deal with it anyway

So, the tears fell, my face became red and my eyes turned a brilliant blue upon the backdrop of red. I really do like my eyes when I cry

I cried today
I guess, once I had finished, it felt good
But I hate the helplessness