You say you love her

you think you are worthy of her
you constantly tell her that you love her
that you are in love with her
but you don't know what love is
you are too self absorbed
too selfish
to see what you are doing to her
and you don't care,
as long as you get your way
if you loved her you would suffer your own pain
so that she could be happy
you would throw yourself in front of a bus to save her cat
so she wouldn't have to grieve
you would do ANYTHING for her
just so that she would be happy
if you cared at all for her,
you would wake up almost in tears because she was angry with you in a dream you had
you would actually think about what you said,
before you said it, and censor it so as not to hurt her any more than you already have
if you loved her, you would take what friendship
she still seems willing to give you
and make the most of it

you need to decide
do you love her, or do you want her as your own
because im afraid that if you want her as your own,
you're probably not going to get her
but if you love her,
love her like you say you do
let her be
give in
let her be HAPPY!
you are taking away her happiness,
punishing her still,
for something that happened so long ago,
neither of you can remember what happened.

like the King Solomon story in the bible
the two women fighting over the baby
and he said he would cut the kid in half,
and give half to each
but what he really wanted to see was who loved the child enough to give it up to protect it

you are cutting her in half
she may not show it, but you are cutting her up in side
you need to be the woman, you need to be Jacob
give up fighting for the baby, for Bella
and accept that though you may love her the most,
you know that you aren't right for her,
and maybe no one is,
but love her enough to want to see her happy,
even just for now
and let her be