So

Maths is done.
And now that I'm into it, I think I'm actually going to enjoy SOR. I actually sorta wish it was a hand in assignment... I could have fun with it :D

On another note, yet I'm sure related,
Is my presence in life recently.
Like my PRESENCE, actually being there, noticing things, involving myself in things
Today I found out that my friend's grandmother died nearly a week ago, and I didn't even notice
I don't notice anything
I'm constantly wrapped up in my thoughts, I'm snappy, self absorbed, impatient and just plain absent.
And I can't blame it on lack of sleep, because I sleep well
I can't blame it on stress, becuase up till yesterday, I was fine
You ruined my brain. I was going fine without you for 2 odd years,
then you pop back into my life, and I can think of nothing else
You make me confused, uncertain.
You make me think things I don't want to consider
Doing things to people I would never imagine
and it's your fault
You planted them in my brain
It's your fault
And you don't even know
Because you never noticed me
you never noticed my reaction to your every word, your every movement
You've taken over my life in the last 2 weeks
and for what?
a few abstract, inrealistic dreams?
Well thanks a lot. Thanks for nothing
But no matter how much I want to stop thinking about you
No matter how much I try to make you go away
you return, more than before
I hope someday you realise
Just how much time I spend on you
I hope someday I can actually tell you so many things
I'll add them to the list of the other 'someday' wishes I have of you and me