Just so you know

you've been bugging me for a while

im warming up to yell

don't worry, i will get there

i'm just not in the right frame of mind..

ill wait for one of my 'angry at the world days'

according to her pebbles, it happens a lot
lol

but when i do let lose...
there will be a lot to let lose about

I don’t know you anymore. I thought I did but you changed.
I hate you for the fact that she chases after you
I hate you for the fact that she loves you so much and you don’t even see it
I hate you for the fact that you love her so much and don't let her forget it
I hate you for the fact that she doesn’t care to get hurt in the process
I hate you for the fact that you don’t care
I hate you for the fact that you just dump her like garbage
I hate you for the fact that she took so long to heal, and now that she has, you have broken her again
I hate you for the fact that I will have to be the one to see her in pain, while she tries to hide it
I hate you for the fact that you don't really care what happens to her no matter how much you say you love her
I hate you for the fact that you won't let her be happy with her
I hate you for the fact that you are too selfish to want to see her happy
I hate you for the fact that she hates that you do all this
But, like her, I can’t hate YOU.... I hate that most of all.

Didn't want to dampen the mood...

i was thinking last night,
why i hadn't cried in so long
and i figured it out
i always used to cry at the drop of a hat,
and then...
nothing
i turned cold, hard
and i just realised why

i ran out of tears

she still remembers the first time she cried

her father was yelling at her mother

she stood there

waiting for it to end,

tears silently streaming down her face

but still she had hope

though she felt helpless

she ran to the foot of the stairs

and sat in the corner.

She began to cry uncontrollably,

just letting the tears come,

not bothering to wipe them,

and knowing that when she did,

there would be twice as many in their place.

She still remembers her last father’s day.

That day, she finally realised

what a monster he had turned into.

She realised that there was no going back.

She accepted it that day.

She didn’t sleep for a year.

She is still broken.

That father’s day was the

last day he was her dad.

Ironic isn’t it?

I've Decided

nothing...or rather i've decided i'm going to do nothing...

In other news,
i would like to thank you
i like it when you complement me
it makes me feel like, even when i am at my worst
you are there, no matter what
i knew that already,
but it was nice to hear all the same

so thankyou for complementing me
and for being there

love you always!

Gotta Love the Amanda Show

Knock, knock
who's there?
Fire extinguisher
Fire extinguisher who?
I'm gonna hit you over the head with a fire extinguisher
huh?
*hits over head with fire extinguisher*
[laughs] that was a good one!

I'm from Tenesse!
I'm Popular!
I like... eggs!

This one time, i went to the zoo
and there was this animal
and it was all like
grrr
and there was this other animal
and it was all like
grrr
and there was this other animal
and it was all
grrr
and there was this other animal
and it was like
tktktktkt aaatktktkt
*makes random squeeking noises*
and that was totally kyle!
totally!

ARGH!

HOW DO I LINK THIS TO MY PROFILE!

GB, cuz you are the only one who appears to be able to read this, could you please tell me how to link my blog to my image?

cuz if madz wants to read this, she can't cuz when she clicks on my picture, my blog isn't attached!

and i don't know why!

Well this is interesting

Hello Genah!

Iwonder i you know who this is.

Well here are some clues...

La Tua Mumma e` bene in camera

and

tu ragazza cane

know who i am? lol

if not, i am not happy!

I still don't know if i am angry at you...
i think i was somewhere along the line,
but i forgot why

OH, i had an italian exam today
and i only half failed... which is an improvement
on last time, when i literally did fail
as in i got a D
that was depressing
I've never gotten a D before
but what scares me is that at the time
i didn't care
hmmm...
good thing that has changed, its not a good thing to think

Antelope, if you're out there, please follow me...
i feel lonely

Do you know what bugs me?

Disrespect.

I see it all the time.

And there is nothing i hate more than a disrespectful person.

I'm one of the nerdy ones at school, and i do debating,
and tonight we have a secret debate, and we were relying on a certian girl to chairperson
and she tells us at 1 o'clock that it appears she can't cuz she has a draft due.

if you are in a team and commited to something, you stick at it.
you don't get out when the going gets tough.

do you know another thing that bugs me?
disrespect for teachers.

i really think teachers are great, they educate the future generations
and i believe that no matter how annoying they are, you do not disrespect them.

They don't have to help you
they don't have to mark your drafts
they don't have to give up their lunch times to do your stuff

so shouldn't you be thanking them, instead of abusing them at every chance you get?

I really hate disrespect...