Disappointement

i completed the 40 hr famine on sunday.
i was quite dissapointed in myself.
why?
well, in 40 hrs i consumed 5 barley sugars and about 2 litres of water
no, i didn't cheat.

no, the reason i was disappointed was that the 40hr fmaine is supposed to be a challenge, something you struggle to do. something you consider giving up on.
though i thought of food adnd would have liked some, i wasn't hungry.i wasn't sitting there brooding about the Etheopian children. no, i was out enjoying myself because
a) i wasn't actually hungry
and b) i knew at the end i would have food waiting for me anyway.

IT WASN'T A CHALLENGE

the 40hr famine should be something that requires complete self-control and dicipline, great will power and be a major challenge.
next year? definately
only next year i am going to suffer like an etheopia child.
no food
limited water
no furnature
no electricity
no human contact

next year i plan to have 40 hrs of no talking, no emailing, no light, no tv, i will use only 2 buckets of water in the 2 days.

i will suffer and i will stick it out.
and only then will i begin to realise how good i have it.